05
Baby, we’ve been together off and on for around 10 years now. I’m not very good at expressing myself out loud, so I thought it best to write this for you instead.
I remember when we first met. I was 17 and I saw you from a distance at a party. My friend Cody introduced us and we hit it off right away. God, you were rough with me that first night! I couldn’t think about anything else that next day but you. I knew after that, that I didn’t want anyone else.
You’ve always been so good to me. All those mornings when I would wake up and you would let me have you…and all those quickies on my lunch breaks. I love the way you taste. You always got my heart beating, and truth be told, whenever we’re together, my heart still races for you.
Most of my friends know about us, but I always tried to keep you a secret from my family. You’ve always been there for me. All those parties we were at, whenever I felt nervous or out of place, I always knew I could hide behind you. You always gave me something to do.
We’ve ended this a few times now, but I always seemed to come back to you…you have that kind of affect on me…
But now…now…
We just can’t be together anymore, babe. I know you’ve seen this coming, but our torrid affair has to end. We used to see each other all day, but these past few years, we’re only around each other on weekends, and that’s killing me. I used to think about you constantly, but now my sleepless nights are only filled with my need to lie to myself about how you really make me feel.
I can’t do this anymore. I hope you understand, but you’re killing me. I hope you’ll remember all the good times we had together. I know I’ll see you around, at the bars and parties. I’ll see you with someone new and I hope you know that when I do, i’ll smile. I’ll never stop being able to think about you.
I’m going to miss you terribly, cigarettes…
Ben
you’re such a wacko…